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Sunday, 13 January 2008

I.D Journal Entry 11.01.2005

Translation by Philosoranter (jpopmusic.com)

2005 is Finally Here

2005 is finally here. Where, with whom, and in what way did you spend the new year?

As for me, gratefully celebrating the new year while looking at the faces of friends and family was something I could not do. Happening at the end of last year, that disaster that was bigger than memory shocked me. Of course, I don't know any more than what I get from TV and newspapers. But the thing that was there a moment ago dying in an instant, being snatched away, the terror and sadness of that, I can only guess the kind of feeling that comes. How that could happen to those ten thousand, to those many, too many people in an instant! Observing one by one the state of the damage, my heart begins to ache. From now until the reconstruction is complete, when I think of how long it will take, I feel the irritation of not being of any help.

As I'm writing this first I.D. of 2005, I want to wish everyone a healthy, strong, and kind new year. Since there's nothing we can do to stop nature, I wish we can build a closer connection to the Earth. In this world of decadence, environmental destruction, and unending conflict, I wish that as much as possible, the many people of the world can hold on to their hopes and work together in cooperation.

In our family this New Year's, a beautiful, splendid scene unfolded. My niece (9 months) proudly stood on her own, and my heart melted. In meeting the radiance of this new life, I understand how this brightness grows. She made us all smile, as with a satisfied and boastful expression, she rose joyfully, boldly challenged falling down or banging her head.

Her eyes are brimming over with hope. From here she'll absorb so many things with unbelievable speed. And after that, she'll meet with sad things, unreasonable things. But whatever is out there, it's still like you thought when you were born: this world is overflowing with beautiful things. That's what I want to say as her aunt. "Morning and night and water and life and songs and stars and love, we're wrapped up and surrounded by these things."

It seems my strength is insignificant, against questions that are too big, but I hope if I wish for those I care for to live in happiness it will come true. This year, too, for your family, your lovers, your pets, let's be concious of those important to us. And while we're at it, ourselves, too.

xmaayax

1 comments:

Johannes Krauser II said...

ah.. this time, it was partly my fault..

I'm not sure if anyone believed this, but it seems the connection of those whom are close with the creator were having a sad/reconing time looking at the society breakdown going around the world.

The warning came, and evaporated everything. People from the law society would know it as "Act of God".

My personal experience was staying over in Melacca, was around a few hundreds kilometers east away from that devastation at that time. Clouds were, well, angry looking. Angel Mikael was just channeling our feelings and doing what he was asked for.

Seriously, sometimes the keys of this world is in the hands of the few innocent, and in the hands of the knowledgeable. When they feel sad, something happens.

Time of when it happen, a day after Chrismas 2004 XD I can never forget it. I was there when the sea changed its color. Saw it.